I am sorry, please forgive me.

I can say this a thousand times over and words still won't be enough to fix the irrevocable damage I have caused to to both of our lives. I read somewhere that pain changes people and I know deep in my heart that you will never be the same person you once were. I take full accountability for my actions and if I could turn back time, I would have chosen differently, every time. 

I am an explosion of immense remorse, guilt and regret. Every little thing that reminds me of you sets me off. I thought of the green monster sitting at the dashboard of your car one day and I ended up crying. 

There is a reason why I have never been able to do inversions at yoga classes. I never learned the lesson of letting go.